Who Am I?

By bethanngormong, July 30, 2020

Be yourself, not a copy of others.

Anonymous

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I’ve been wrestling with this for years now. The question of “who am I?’ is difficult for an Enneagram 9 to answer. We see so many possibilities, so many good paths, and have so many ideas. At the same time, we find it way to easy to take on the characteristics of those we are close to or conform to the idea of who others think we should be. 

I’ve fallen into those traps.

·         I’ve spent many years trying to be a good, nice, submissive Christian woman at the expense of being who God created me to be.

·         I’ve wasted time looking to others for my identity.

·         I’ve let others tell me what my priorities should be.

All the while, I’ve wondered who I was and what I was supposed to be doing. I bought into the lie that my presence mattered only as much as those around me determined. And they decided my worth based on their own wants and needs.

So who am I?

· A uniquely created child of God

·         A quiet, peaceful presence

·         An empathetic being who lives into the feelings of others

·         A sensitive body who needs space and gentleness

·         An old soul who feels God’s pleasure and pain deeply

·         Hands who must be creating, always

·         A voice who is best heard through the pen and paper

·         A mouth who finds it easier to sing than to speak

·         A student in search of wisdom

· A presence that matters

Who are you? And whose voice are you listening to, God’s or human’s?